Broken Brain

I've had more seizures in the past month that I haven't had been feeling too hot for writing what's on my mind. It's been messing with my speech more and more and memory. I can't seem to remember certain things or dates in time.  3 seizures in one day, that's ridiculous for Me! I lost one whole day and I didn't even realize it. I woke up three times in the hospital thinking that I was home and one time was when I was in the MRI machine getting some tests done and I moved in the middle of the middle test. The hospital doctors kept me sleeping allllllll day so I wouldn't get another seizure. Now it's like someone has flipped a switch, I loved scary shit and thrillers..all that stuff causes me anxiety now and I start seizing up. IT SUCKS LIKE A MOTHER****** UGHHHHHHHHH!!! and I got one this morning that's why I'm writing this.

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Keeping up Maintenance

Trying to keep up with maintenance with this blog and producing videos 

on YouTube is pretty challenging. Almost like keeping up with my eyebrows, 

i keep up with them most of the time and the other time i just let them go cause i just 

want to be lazy and pain free but most of all lazy

and they grow fast.

But I just found out that blogger has a phone app so that makes it 5x easier for me to do this. Not so sure about the videos but we're working on that. With the constant distractions of life its lucky that i get one or three a week so im gonna strive for that. Not every day cause that just unrealistic, if i get 4 or 5 in its because the phone app is really helping.

And if its going to be just one its going to be one DAMN good one cause i wouldnt let you guys hanging like that, please what kind of person do you think i am, A monster! 

But it will never come down to that

causeeeeee

im just 

too

damn

lazy

hehehe

ill just write the 4 really semi decent ones lol

just kidding

or am i

So the other day i had to re-read my blog description just to make sure what i was writing about was about accurate and it was semi-accurate..i was supposed to be writing about MY LIFE and news is not technically not my life. Well it is and its not cause is affecting me in some sort way, i just had to get this all sorted out before i reported some news story on here next time.

I get distracted by EVERYTHING,  im like a dog that gets distracted by a squirrel in those animated movies. Food, TV, Chores around the house, my videos, my music, my comfy bed, and everything else that needs to be done. And i can spend endless hours online, snapchat, and Instagram those are my big ones oh yeah i forgot Pinterest i can pin for hours. 

So im just trying to apologize for the 100th time lol 

"Continuous effort -  not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking

our potential"

- Winston Churchill 

Im Grateful For...

My Husband 

I dont know how I would do without my husband here in the now. I cant even imagine it, no yes i can i would do bad. Probably still be living with my parents and even in worse shape than i am now cause my parents like to baby me. Even though he may be an old man (hes a year older than me lol)I dont know how I WOULD function in this world NOW. Five years ago I could but not now hes made me all mushy and stuff, not my usual self. Hes made me into a better person and I him, I love him for that.  

Modern Medicine

What else can we say about this. Modern medicine is modern medicine and its fucking great. If it weren't for this stuff we all be lying almost dead or on our death beds right now till they eventually came up with something which i mean they would but still you get the picture. Modern Medicine has been pretty great to me cause it has kept me alive back then people affected with lupus only had so many years to live and even though they haven't come up with a cure they have a way to control and treat it where you can live a semi comfortable life. 

My Parents 
Im so grateful for my parents, I could write books and books about their struggles and accomplishments. They've had much more struggles yet they dont complain and i love them for that. This country has given them nothing and they dont complain.  They're old and my father is still working his ass off, trying to get the bills paid and since my mom and uncle are mentally unstable (schizophrenic) they both got medical bills and my father is their only Savior cause he loves them both and my other bitch uncles didnt want to deal with my unstable uncle so they dropped him off at my dads house. Bitches. They came here for a better chance at life, check cause back in Mexico we were dirt poor I remember that. And then I got sick so Im thankful for my parents for taking to all these specialists and all these doctors and giving me a chance at life. Back in Mexico, in the little town i mean little town where i was living i would've probably died and thats not joking. I would've probably seen some witch doctor than an actual doctor.
   

Music
Everybody likes music but im not everybody, Im actually grateful for it cause it helped me get me my speech back. So im like 5% of some I LOVE LOVE MUSIC. Actually more than my makeup and i love my makeup but if someone took away all my music that i accumulated over my 27 years I would SHOOT them in FACE...NO JOKE! I would be very boring person because music and art are the two things that make up my DNA.

"Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are charming
gardeners, who make our souls blossom."
- Marcel Proust

Youtubers Crash and Burn- Too much too fast

I did too much too fast with my health...thats a no
thats why i wasnt writing blogs 
i was staying up most nights editing videos 
I got sick as a result
and now my effing computer wont let me do my videos 
its stupid
my husband is gonna try to fix it, lets see what he can do
now i feel what they feel
YOUTUBER CRASH AND BURN
i was weak
but its so much fun being in front that camera 
that made totally worth it

"Growth begins when we begin to accept our own weakness"
- Jean Vanier

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Favorite FOOD TV shows

I have a deep love with food thats why my big ol' Mexican family 

calls me gordita "little chubby one" as it translates to.

I take no offence to its just a nickname ever since i was a child 

but I LOVE FOOD!! 

so much that i used to cook with both hands before 2012 

and i got surgery done in 2012 which left my right side

paralyzed and it took me a while to retrain myself on how to somewhat perform some of the basics, I still have someone help me but i try

cause i love to cook 

Im a one handed home chef 

or as my mother-in-law likes to put it 

"someone who just likes to throw a bunch stuff together in a pan" 

at least my stuff comes out tasty *shade* 

Some of my favorite Food TV Shows

are as follows

MasterChef

i just love regular people like you and me going into these kind of competitions and making extraordinary dishes that leave the judges floored.

 MasterChef Jr.

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE LOVE this version of it cause those are some talented ass kids. Im like whatttttttt where did they learn that and then i have to think twice thats its a new generation growing up technology and YouTube.

Top Chef

its a reality food competition, hey what more do i need.

Hell's Kitchen

Cause i like watching Gordon yelling his soul at people.

Diners, Drives Ins, and Dives

Guy Fieri just takes us to best little spots that city is really famous for or one hidden gem. They sometimes show how to make some of their food, i write it down.

Bizarre Foods with Andrew Zimmern

This show explores various cultures through their food and they show some weird food but he eats up like its regular chicken and i loves it. I love seeing the different food and the different cultures.

Anthony Bourdain: No Reservations

Travel, culture, wine, and all kinds of yummy food what else could I want out of a show..... the actual thing DUH 

 BUT since i dont get to get to experience i like to hear about it from 

a semi decent voice on great tv show 

UNWRAPPED

This was my favorite tv show of all time they didnt much cooking here but broke down your favorite snacks or cereals or anything food related. Marc Summers was my favorite voice to hear on the 4th of July i dont know why but he was always on the food network when this time rolled around and me and my sister where really excited to get to watch. I would talk about this show all day but that would just bore you guys, just know that this show was a big part of my life.

"In France, cooking is a serious art form and a national sport."

- Julia Child