All these Killings, Mass Shootings have left with no hope for humanity

Sweet Jesus where to begin, here in America all the police violence thats been going on and I support the blacklivesmatter movement cause its what i think 

its right

but I dont support police men being shot up at the same time 

its just not right 

im worried for this country
truly
it feels like we're going backwards 
and those horrible terrorists suicide bombing or shooting up somewhere in the world
i dont know if theyre planning it or just doing it randomly 
but im scared 
ive never been scared to go outside
to go out somewhere 
i dont feel safe anywhere
safety is no longer a choice we have cause a crazy person can just blow up or shoot up where we are currently standing 
its scary to think that they are teaching kids, young kids in schools how to hide if a shooter entered the school...i learned fire drills and tornado drills 
thats fucked up
I read a story today that in Munich, Germany there was a guy who shot 9 killing them and injuring another 16 but of these they were mostly children and this made me cry!
Children are innocent
the children were eating and couldnt run to get away 
well the fucker killed himself
he didnt deserve that 
he deserved so much more

"Cowards die many times before their deaths; the valiant never taste of death but once."
-William Shakespeare

The Case Of Re-introducing MYSELF

Hey World I want to become a YouTuber

Its been a while since i posted on here but here we go.

I've been great so far, the first part of the summer wasnt so great I was having constant seizures.

There was constant trips to the ER and we didnt know what triggering the seizures cause i had been seizure free for years and all of the sudden i get seizure after seizure..no no no thats no bueno but i found out that my general doctor took me off this one medicine that she wasnt aware off was for seizures so they put me back on it. yeah i got all kinds of bad grammar in my blogs but theyre mine so please bare it.

They also put me on a STEROID, ugh but this steroid kinda changed my life, i feel GREAT but my doctors said to stay away from steroids they deteriorate bones 

but but but this steroid also has a big effect on my intimate life 

i dont want to do it at ALL these days

that makes me sad and that makes my husband sad

it makes me want to enjoy life more except for that part

I WANT TO DO EVERYTHING 

I went to a wedding in Kentucky, 6 hour drive and the hotel that we reserved for 5 people they messed up and only reserved for 2 so we got our money back and out there. We were livid. So we out lost in Kentucky at 9pm looking for anything that had a bed, we found a Motel6 that had two big beds ..for being a motel it was pretty fucking decent.. in the morning we found out it even had a pool so it was pretty nifty.

the wedding was another hour away but it was so cute and perfect for them. Im so happy for them, it was for my cousin-in-law shes so sweet and she deserved it. it was an outside wedding and i got so burned, i bubbled ive never had that, i got blisters from the sun. im getting too white lol im freaking Mexican! but its cool 

I WENT SWIMMING FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 6 YEARS!!!!!

it felt awesome but i was a little not alot wobbly i kept falling in the water lol how do you that you may ask..idk lol

i almost drowned but i still think it was worth it lol

i love the water as long as it doesnt get past my neck 

 the lazy river was so relaxing ahhhhh i could stay there all day but the slides were soooooo much fun i hadnt had those feelings in a long time where i could just let go and be carefree.

Anyways

I have so many fucking excuses that i have just tell myself STOP and NO 

and just do it or else i wont get anything done with YouTube 

I want people to see me and be inspired/weirded/spooked 

i did a short video today featuring this blog but i still have to edit and upload it..ugh..see see..STOP 

I was doing videos on my webcam then i got an actual Camera back in February and a tripod i was so excited to get started but then I didnt they just sitting there and i kept coming up with excuses but most days i felt sick cause i was.

but no more

this has to stop

TODAY

Im Off

UPDATE

And life keeps moving on.....(update) ive been doing alright,trying to go to the gym but its hard to get motivated but im trying ..i need so much motivation..i lost more movement in my right hand, nevermind im just going to make a video about it go to http://www.youtube.com/koikoigalaxia

Music It FEEDS the soul

Music, it can be a nice cup of tea for when you need to just relax or it can be

shot tequila or vodka, I prefer the tequila, when you need 

to get the party started or you yourself need to get in the mood. Right now im listening to Christmas Songs and its not even Xmas its getting ready to become Spring, its March.

Christmas songs whenever i listen to them I get a warm feeling and i think of everything that has to do with Xmas.

I can get lost in my music for hours and hours on end, maybe i should change my career cause I LOVEEEEEE music so much and I love finding new music wether

its new new or its an oldie. 

I just realized right now, listening to music, how big my brain surgery was..it just blew my mind away cause the surgeon could've touched something in there 
and I could have not been able to walk  or something else..omg they took something
out of my head!!!!! 

Ive had so many surgeries, im not scared of not waking up cause i dont think 
about it, i just want my music when i wake up cause it calms me 
down or else i couldnt be sane
i wish LIFE was one big soundtrack 
where everyone busted in  dance and somehow they were in sync and they knew how to dance..OMG i would love that...im picturing West Side Story but BETTER! 
 Bollywood but BETTER! 

I wish I could get paid for listening to music all day but alas tis the real world and 
you got to have money money money for that.

"Without music, life would be a mistake"
-Friedrich Nietzsche

Blue Christmas

Even though I'm all smiles about this Christmas making the best of it

which is about to be over in like 20 min

its 11:39 p.m.

12/25/2014

im glad its going to end so i dont have to fake pretend to be happy

I dont like to bash people on my blog, well ok its my 

blog so i can do whatever the hell i want to do 

but my MOTHER IN LAW was bringing EVERYONE down 

she was like a little kid throwing a tantrum 

ive never seen anyone be that grumpy 

11:45

I mean really its she wants attention, im not gonna go into details why she was mad and 

all but she didnt want go out she just wanted to be left alone

then my husband had to work from 2 to 10 pm so that ruined it too

11:50

I just want this day to end

I was calling all my family members and i had to pretend like i had a good 

Christmas, i know they did 

God i wished i had spent it with my Mexican family 

Next Year I AM SPENDING CHRISTMAS with them

11:55

so close

I went over to uncle Tommys for a bit at least they were cheery 

Michelle and Rice took me

Oh my Gosh I love that family its like they are sooooo warm and cozy lol

yea they told us what they got but none of that phases me, i dont mind them telling us 

because theyre excited and who doesnt want to tell when theyre excited

11:58

they gave us meaning me and brandon the cutest gift or gifts 

they wrapped 

12:00

ITS OVER

CHRISTMAS IS OVER!!!  

12/26/2014

anyways they wrapped a bunch of boxes which consisted of Graham Crackers,

Chocolate, and Marshmallows..oh and they gave us some hot chocolate 

mix packets for when it gets cold 

12:05

we stayed and chatted for a while and watched some tv, i didnt want to leave

but i was getting tired and we some yummy dip with crackers and 

Croissants with chicken salad  

it was good so that was our lunch lol 

12:10

  Im a huger and i give hugs whether they may want one or not and Uncle Tommy, Aunt Kim, 

And Abby give the best hugs out of all them lol 

so we left 

and we were still hungry 

so our Christmas dinner was

CHINESE 

isnt that festive lol 

it was the only place open 

and thank God that made Shannan my mother in law smile

we got food for everybody

12:20

I should go to bed I leave to go celebrate New Years with 

my Family

i miss them sooo much 

I leave like at 4:30pm but i havent done any packing yet 

my dad is going to pick up Brandon my husband on Monday

its Friday officially 

and im leaving with Michelle my sister in law and her boyfriend Rice

Today

12:25

we were both supposed to leave together my husband and I, but he messed up

his work schedule like always ugh he aggravates me sometimes 

but i loves him

12:29

im gonna go brush my teeth and take off my Christmas makeup

12:30

I had the very worst Christmas 

wait thats not true 

that one time i spent it in the hospital

no nope thats a lie i was happy before that lupus flare came on

This has truly been one of the worst Christmas Ever  

I hope to never experience it again

UGH

"When you have a bad day always reamember someone else's day is worse.

Be thankful for what you have"

-Ritu Ghatourey

Cumpleaños(Birthday)

I had a very grateful and DRAMATIC 25 birthday, it was on Dec 7 and it spilled onto Dec 8 cause i had to wait for my cake.
Since the Parks are no joke when they told me they were loud, my family are no angels not quiet ones that are singing the chorus to Gods birthday lol.
 Anyways since we're low low low class (we're struggling but we get our bills paid) I was very grateful for what i got for my birthday
 I wasnt expecting anything, some warm slippers and a warm blanket....Facebook posts mehhh those dont mean that much unless you come up with like a paragraph worth like my husband did lol

Happy Birthday beautiful. One of the biggest pleasures I have in life is being able to witness just how strong you are. 
What you had to endure the past few years is something that I don't think just anyone could endure. 
How you have been able to continue drawing WHILE still learning to use your opposite hand makes me even more grateful to have met you.
Aside all of your medical history you have always been like someone out of a movie. Your kind, caring, charitable, resourceful, you're a smartass, and you can light a fire under someone's butt when they deserve it. (Especially with me.) And I wouldn't have it any other way. 
You've changed me for the better and given me all the inspiration I need. When my comics get done it will be partly because of you and how you kept me on track. 
I've got plenty of future projects and one of them is showing people just how amazing of a spirit you have through my artwork. 
You are the kind of hero that inspires people to do better. 

Love you!

Aww I love him

he wrote that in the wee hours of the day and as the day went on it just got like a

rollercoaster, there were some high point and some low points

I got calls/Messages from everybody Parks/Carmonas/Reyes Family and that warmed my heart it even warms my heart typing this now, but that was awesome to get calls from everybody even now im receiving a call or two days later from ppl that think that they forgotten and its no biggie, hmmm WoW so thats how much of an impact i make on people, Getting a big head here people!!!!lol lol hahaha someone POP IT QUICK! 

anyways after the endless calls cause im wildly popular(reel in the sarcasm) me and my husband got into an argument i dont remember what about ON MY BIRTHDAY! it was a boring dull day so we have to have some form of excitement but it just came in a bad way. I did most of the yelling cause when it comes to fights, yelling fights he has no chance.

10 min 

thats about how long the fight took but it was still a fight or should i call it an 

argument
(I WISH I COULD WRITE WITH MY ACTUAL HANDS NOT TYPE
THIS POURING OF FEELINGS OUT WOULD BE SOOOOOOOOOOOO
MUCH FASTER)

Anyways my other Mom made my favorite dish which was SPAGHETTI and she made me
2!!!! CHEESECAKES
The part that I didnt like was that we ended up eating at separate times in different rooms
we had some Drama going on and it wasnt even that big of deal
Jeez Now that i think about it
it just pisses me of
PETTY SHIT
we just ate and a day later my other mom cut the the cheesecake
she didnt even let me cut it cause she was all dramatic and being moody
 All i wanted was the Happy Birthday song
No Happy Birthday Song
so that was that
my spectacular birthday
ahwell theres always next year

"The Old believe Everything; The Middle Aged Suspect Everything; The Young Know Everything."
-Oscar Wilde