Sunday, July 31, 2016

Morning Tea

I think I planned this out right this morning 
yeah 
I got this
So my pitbull is getting old, poor baby, shes having trouble getting
on the bed when it was so easy for her like a few weeks ago
i just feel so bad for her 
i think its her hips but we have to call her vet 

So I scrolled through my Facebook yesterday 
and I noticed that my friend went to my buddy went to his high school 
10 YEAR REUNION 
I went to same high school which i think got me excited 
except I have 2 more years to plan my outfit
YES!

How about this guys 
An After school Satan Club for elementary schools
sounds bad huh
oh stop it you judgy mcjudgers
the group just want to give children a choice
because we never have its always been the heavenly father shoved down
our throat whether we like it or not 
whether we choose it or not 
and theyre giving us a choice 
not between Jesus or Satan 
“It’s critical that children understand that there are multiple perspectives on all issues, and that they have a choice in how they think,” said Doug Mesner, the Satanic Temple’s co-founder.
the group doesnt plan on actually worshiping the devil, the temple rejects all forms of super-naturalism and its committed to the view that scientific rationality provides the best measure of reality.

I recently got into amateur photography and i'm going crazy snapping photos of anything and everything. I used to take just pics of myself and of my family but now I take pics of EVERYTHING.
I think I need to get a new camera though cause the one i got now is good for videos but is crazy heavy for me 
i need a light one 
You can out my Instagram 
to see what I came up with

Oh its Harry Potters Birthday today 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!YAY 

ok I did better this time guys 
ill have more next time 

"Genious is one percent inspiration and ninety-nine percent perspiration."
- Thomas A. Edison  


Thursday, July 28, 2016

Morning Tea

So its looking like a cloudy day today and the news said
there might be chance of "Sprinkling" today 
but overall nice and cloudy

In today's blog 
Im going to start doing a morning blog every other day 
just to let you guys know 
its going to cover a variety of topics 

so here we go

Trump
"Russia, if you are listening, I hope you are able to find the 30,000 that are missing..."
that was yesterday 

and today he says he was just being sarcastic asking Russia to hack Clintons emails
"Of Course I was being sarcastic," he said on Fox and Friends this morning

 dude you dont even say that or fucking mess with the issue
jeez i cant believe this guy has so many supporters

Click it you wont regret it

So this started off hopeful but its 11:00 AM and I got to get off the computer now 
lets plan
cause i was just going off the top of my head 

"Think in the morning. Act in the noon. Eat in the evening. Sleep in the night."
- William Blake

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

I Couldnt Have a better Day (sarcasm)

(ALL THE CUSSWORDS IN THE WORLD INSERT HERE)
bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep 
Fuck

thats how my day went today
it was like a snowball effect 
the morning was pretty good till we found out our phones were shut off
we have to pay 400 dollars before we get our phones 
back on and we're completely broke
we dont even have money for toilet paper and we need that 
the cheapest toilet paper is .50cents 
and we have to scrounge around for that
I need a medicine thats $5 and we asked my husbands grandmother to borrow 5 dollars and she gave us 10 for the medicine and my husband gave it to my mother-in-law and she used for gas, i said fine ..but inside i was a little bit mad cause i knew they needed to get to work but they dont need to go to pointless places all the time...me and brandon dont go ANYWHERE and we're fine 
that was yesterday that she took the 10 dollars 
Now today the phones were turned off, we werent aware off that until they came home from work 
they came home around 11:30
we had a very important doctors appointment at 2:00pm
which we didnt know we had to pay a copay of $20 
we didnt have those $20
we trying our best to call and call on the LANDLINE that we did have
nobody at the the doctors office picked up
that was our fuck up we should called earlier 
but we were trying to get ahold of someone to try not to pay the copay if they could bill us
my mother-in-law lets just call her shannan 
Shannan was getting so shitty and angry 
she was yelling at us really mean comments 
since we couldn't get a hold of anybody if  we went down there (it was a drive so she was shitty for a reason but all of the other comments weren't necessary) and we didnt we have the copay they werent let me see the doctor
So we were in the car and she told Brandon to go and try one more time and he did 
waiting waiting waiting 
waiting
....
....
....
the fucking doctor cancelled on me
for the 3RD TIME!!!!!
I was waiting for this appointment eagerly
cause ive been having multiple seizures and they took an MRI in the fucking ER and they saw something abnormal 
I HAD FUCKING QUESTIONS
she moved till October 
OCTOBER

that gives me more time to stress about it
jeez thanks doc

"You need to able to able to manage stress because hard times will come, and a positive outlook is what gets you through."
- Marie Osmond 
   

Monday, July 25, 2016

We're Poor But Happy

Ive never been with a family that struggled so much
but even though we struggle we get though it
Im the only one that doesnt work in the family and I feel extra guilty cause they have to support me 
Im trying to get my work visa so that i can work so that i can contribute to this family and maybe help a little 
its like they get their checks and they are gone like water running through their fingers..i dont know how they do it 
I know how to save money..I hide it from them cause if they found out i have money, they ask 
I saved up like 600 dollars for my husbands Xmas Gift 
jeez its not that hard to save money just put away 
10 dollars each time you get paid and DONT TOUCH IT!
its that simple
ohwell they dont have the same mentality as me
but we've been so poor ive had to eat chocolate chips as a snack and there wasnt many 
we didnt have any food for a while
our fridge was bare, all we open it for was to cool off
And is still pretty bare but at least we're not starving now

It feels like we have gone through a lifetime of struggles and its only been 5 YEARS!!!
WOAH
Im tired
 I love them all 
especially my husband 
Even though we're poor 
I dont care about any of that 
As long as i got a roof over my head and a bed to sleep on 
Im good
We're Happy and Humble

"Having been poor is no shame, but being ashamed of it, is."
-Benjamin Franklin 

Saturday, July 23, 2016

All these Killings, Mass Shootings have left with no hope for humanity

Sweet Jesus where to begin, here in America all the police violence thats been going on and I support the blacklivesmatter movement cause its what i think 
its right
but I dont support police men being shot up at the same time 
its just not right 
im worried for this country
truly
it feels like we're going backwards 
and those horrible terrorists suicide bombing or shooting up somewhere in the world
i dont know if theyre planning it or just doing it randomly 
but im scared 
ive never been scared to go outside
to go out somewhere 
i dont feel safe anywhere
safety is no longer a choice we have cause a crazy person can just blow up or shoot up where we are currently standing 
its scary to think that they are teaching kids, young kids in schools how to hide if a shooter entered the school...i learned fire drills and tornado drills 
thats fucked up
I read a story today that in Munich, Germany there was a guy who shot 9 killing them and injuring another 16 but of these they were mostly children and this made me cry!
Children are innocent
the children were eating and couldnt run to get away 
well the fucker killed himself
he didnt deserve that 
he deserved so much more

"Cowards die many times before their deaths; the valiant never taste of death but once."
-William Shakespeare

The Case Of Re-introducing MYSELF

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Hey World I want to become a YouTuber

Its been a while since i posted on here but here we go.
I've been great so far, the first part of the summer wasnt so great I was having constant seizures.
There was constant trips to the ER and we didnt know what triggering the seizures cause i had been seizure free for years and all of the sudden i get seizure after seizure..no no no thats no bueno but i found out that my general doctor took me off this one medicine that she wasnt aware off was for seizures so they put me back on it. yeah i got all kinds of bad grammar in my blogs but theyre mine so please bare it.
They also put me on a STEROID, ugh but this steroid kinda changed my life, i feel GREAT but my doctors said to stay away from steroids they deteriorate bones 
but but but this steroid also has a big effect on my intimate life 
i dont want to do it at ALL these days
that makes me sad and that makes my husband sad
it makes me want to enjoy life more except for that part
I WANT TO DO EVERYTHING 
I went to a wedding in Kentucky, 6 hour drive and the hotel that we reserved for 5 people they messed up and only reserved for 2 so we got our money back and out there. We were livid. So we out lost in Kentucky at 9pm looking for anything that had a bed, we found a Motel6 that had two big beds ..for being a motel it was pretty fucking decent.. in the morning we found out it even had a pool so it was pretty nifty.
the wedding was another hour away but it was so cute and perfect for them. Im so happy for them, it was for my cousin-in-law shes so sweet and she deserved it. it was an outside wedding and i got so burned, i bubbled ive never had that, i got blisters from the sun. im getting too white lol im freaking Mexican! but its cool 
I WENT SWIMMING FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 6 YEARS!!!!!
it felt awesome but i was a little not alot wobbly i kept falling in the water lol how do you that you may ask..idk lol
i almost drowned but i still think it was worth it lol
i love the water as long as it doesnt get past my neck 
 the lazy river was so relaxing ahhhhh i could stay there all day but the slides were soooooo much fun i hadnt had those feelings in a long time where i could just let go and be carefree.

Anyways
I have so many fucking excuses that i have just tell myself STOP and NO 
and just do it or else i wont get anything done with YouTube 
I want people to see me and be inspired/weirded/spooked 
i did a short video today featuring this blog but i still have to edit and upload it..ugh..see see..STOP 
I was doing videos on my webcam then i got an actual Camera back in February and a tripod i was so excited to get started but then I didnt they just sitting there and i kept coming up with excuses but most days i felt sick cause i was.
but no more
this has to stop
TODAY
Im Off